Addedum (take 3)

**This was based from Ate Mary's blog which she just also got it from her friend, but I replaced it with my own inputs .**

The ‘deep’ Odessa

I AM … God’s beloved.

I WANT… to please HIM as much as I can…

I HAVE …not seen yet all HIS plans for me… and the best is yet to come…

I KEEP… on praising HIM whenever I’m down…

I WISH I COULD… always know HIS answer... but I still believe in HIS perfect timing...

I HATE… it everytime I displeased HIM (good thing, His grace is sufficient enough!)

I FEAR… finding myself at the wrong side…

I HEAR… HIM saying, “I have crowned you with My favor and love…”

I DON'T THINK… I will ever forget how HE changed my wrecked life!

I REGRET… the time when I made the biggest mistake in my life.

I LOVE… the feeling that GOD loves me so much!

I AM NOT…a quitter!

I DANCE… everytime I praise HIM!

I SING… worship songs especially when I’m down…

I NEVER … dare to question HIS goodness/faithfulness.

I RARELY … stay at the background… I usually prefer to get involved…

I CRY WHEN I WATCH … people who are all-out for GOD.

I AM NOT ALWAYS … “workaholic” like people think…

I HATE THAT … sometimes, you just have to wait… and wait… and wait…

I'M CONFUSED ABOUT … sigh…

I NEED … to focus on HIM to hear the answers to my questions…

I SHOULD …always trust HIM especially for the times when all you can get is… “silence”…


The ‘other side’ of Odessa

I AM … a nature-lover! (I love to see all these peaceful beaches, happy green trees, excited waterfalls… I love listening to the splash of the sea… I’m awed at HIS majestic creation!)

I WANT… to travel the whole world! (and to have a ‘romantic date’ in Paris one day…)

I HAVE … always wanted to have my own house, yacht, rest house… and all these get-away stuffs!

I KEEP … on guarding my heart, haha!

I WISH I COULD … easily jump from places to places whenever I want (especially when I’m bored or wanting to escape? haha!)

I HATE … the feeling when I’m confused…

I FEAR … going to high places and looking down below… (but if you succeed convincing me, I’m certain that my eyes will be closed 98% of the time! Haha!)

I HEAR … that someone is calling my heart! Haha! (Really??? Sino??? Haha! Joke)

I DON'T THINK … I will fall for someone who doesn’t believe in marriage! (lalo na that I’m dreaming of a grand wedding!)

I REGRET … that I have not been to “Puerto Galera” or “Boracay” before I came here in Singapore (when I have already been to "Bintan Indonesia" and “Gold Coast Australia”)

I LOVE … surprises! (and I believe that the way to a woman’s heart is an unexpected gift at unexpected time (from “Finding Forrester”)

I AM NOT … a ‘kikay’ person but choosy… (kaya sometimes, hirap i-please, hehe)

I DANCE …every time I feel like it (especially when I just want to release, kahit nasa labas ng house, hehe…)

I SING … to release…

I NEVER … had a boyfriend! (haha! That’s just the first thing that came to my mind – just being honest. But hey, that’s by choice!)

I RARELY … eat sweets… I always prefer “spicy” over “sweets”

I CRY WHEN I WATCH … drama movies!

I AM NOT ALWAYS … jokey…

I HATE THAT … my sister thinks I’m too “healthy”? (haha)

I'M CONFUSED ABOUT …seriously going to the gym or not… (I’m a busy person you know, charing!)

I NEED ... to have my regular exercise! Or play table tennis on a regular basis or swim…

I SHOULD … lose weight, my sister said because she prefers my body-built when I was in high school (hehe)

The Epitome of Preparing

Still remember the Beijing Olympics 2008? The world was so amazed especially during the Opening Ceremony- it was indeed grand! But many among the million watchers across the countries were really not aware all the things behind these colourful fireworks, remarkable dances or overall epic performance. What happened before the Olympics? How much effort was put in by the Chinese government for this global event? Do all the people know that many factories in China were shutdown to give way for this event? Were all the people aware that the performers were trained for almost a year?

Are you not delighted that in any one-day event, people will spend many days in preparing (that's excluding the crammers of course)? The Olympics Committee prepared for many months for the 2-week-event. Singapore prepared for few months for the 3-day F1 Race. We can still add to the list. Wedding? The couple and families will prepare for months time for the one- day celebration. Why? Because if we miss it, we lose it…

Let me also take the risk of sounding negative because it's also worth noting and reminding everyone that our lives are not all about "hurray's", which means that we also have to prepare for the opposite scenarios that may blow anytime. Taking the global crisis now for example, far from expected (and wanted of course), many economies now across the globe have shattered, including the US.

We can really never tell what's next but that's the epitome of preparing- something that most of us already know but sadly, many are still subscribers of "bahala na" habit, facing all these events at their own peril. Let me "spiritualized" that, many believers are so comfortable knowing that God will be their rescue- a manna falling from heaven. They are forgetting that God will pour out the rain to the field that is ready. Of course, I'm not underestimating His grace but if "preparing" is not part of the plan then He should have already purged out the word "prepare" in the Bible a long time ago.

What are the prayers you are praying for? What are the BIG dreams you are dreaming about? Yes, we can never tell what tomorrow will be but without us preparing, most likely we know where we will end...

Let me conclude with this parable that was stressed in the movie, Facing the Giants:

There are two farmers who needed rain. One prayed. The other one, aside from praying, he went out and prepared his fields in anticipation of the rain. Which of the 2 fields that God will send the rain? Which of the 2 farmers you think that GOD will answer? Now, which one are you?

Eternal Crowns

When God promised us something, we know that He will surely accomplish it. But, He never hands us over the blueprint of the exact plan He has on mind. We know that we will reach the Promised Land when He said so but most of the times, we are clueless on what are the exact atrociously-painful situations that we have to go through. We know the beginning and the end but we don't know the details 'in between'. Right, we anticipate trials but we can never really make a very precise decision unless we are at that situation (Does “cross the bridge when you get there” advice ring a bell?).

When you receive a word from GOD, I’m pretty sure you will be thrilled and energized. It's in the beginning where you will hear all the "Hallelujah" and "Praise the Lord". The excitement is so high. The faith is so BIG. How much more during the triumphant days (end)? All the praises you can utter!

But what about during the “in between”? It's during these times that you can hear all the possible venomous doubts that the enemy can whisper. Can I really make it? Did I really hear God when He said go? What if I’m wrong? What if I should have done the other way instead? All these mind boggling "what if(s)" happen here. The “in between” is the toughest and most crucial part because breakdown may happen here but your choices and actions during these times will determine if you will make it to your promised land - something that the Israelites did not understand.

The Israelites knew that they were on their journey to their promised land but they were not informed (not even Moses) that they had to wait for 40 long years. Probably all types of whining and complaining were uttered when they can’t seem to see what have been promised to them. Pile up every concern that they had plus factor-in the agony of waiting – is a situation that probably most of us can relate with. The ending of the story may be the same or could also be different but that’s up to the choices that we will make. Our actions will dictate the ending of our story. Wonder why some Israelites didn’t reach their promised land? I bet you know the answer!

When I heard God audibly say (just few months old as a believer), “I have appointed you to go and produce fruit that will last, so that whatever you ask the Father in My name, He will give it to you. (John 15:16)", my heart rejoiced and I was so empowered! But, He didn't give me a complete list of all the heart-breaking experiences that I have to run through. He didn't say that I will struggle for my tuition fees nor mentioned that for many days I will get starved. He did not tell me about my dad… or mom will be… or kuya will face these… or ate will have... or our bunso is… and all other bloody stuffs… But most importantly (with a deep sigh), God “purposively failed” to warn me that most of these excruciating things will happen at the same time...

No doubt, the “in between-process” is the most vital stage because it’s in here where we are molded and transformed into His likeness. And it is here where we can get our crowns.

“but we do it to get a crown that will last forever…” 1 Cor 9:25

Crown symbolizes kingship but you can only be a king if you are conquering a territory. What territories or areas of your life that you want to conquer? And what are the crowns that you now have or still want to acquire? Crown of generosity? Crown of perseverance? Crown of loving-kindness? You name them and grab hold of them for the enemy wants to take them away from you.

“I am coming soon! Hold on to what you have so that no one takes your crown.” Revelation 3:11 (emphasis added)

I have not come to the most essential part yet. Flip your Bible to Revelation 4:9-11

“Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits on the throne and who lives for ever and ever, the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne, and worship him who lives for ever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne…” (emphasis added)

Let me put a stress on “They lay their crowns before the throne…” Granted, we will be saved since we have accepted CHRIST as our Lord and Saviour but if that’s God only intention then He should have omitted the “in-between-process” and has already taken us up with HIM right after we have accepted CHRIST. If that’s the case then all that we can say when we meet HIM is, “Thank You Lord for saving me.” But that’s not it. All these battles that we’re fighting for are for HIM. If we’re surpassing all these just for our own satisfaction then I guess, we will not really have that drive to finish the race but if we’re pressing on because of our love for HIM, then all these are crowns are indeed worth fighting for. How encouraging to know that when the appointed day will come, we will not only thank and praise HIM for saving us, but also offer HIM all the crowns that we steadfastly hold on.

“I saw heaven standing open and there before me was a white horse, whose rider is called Faithful and True. With justice he judges and makes war. His eyes are like blazing fire, and on his head are many crowns. He has a name written on him that no one knows but he himself” Revelation 9:11-12

As a final note, I would lie if I will say that I never questioned His promises because I honestly did.... In fact, more than once especially on family matters. There are also times that I tend to go back to my comfort zone instead but I know that in every place that I will enter in, there is always a corresponding place that I have to go out from or leave behind.

With all these words, I’m only left with this question, how many crowns will I be offering to Jesus on that appointed day?

Secrets of Giving in Receiving

Many times we feel "less favoured" when we have stayed so much at the side of receiving. For many times we have probably been wanting to flip the coin and experience the other side of it--- the "giving" side. Or, we might have been wondering what's with those people who can just give much? Are they "more favoured"? It may sound ironic, but actually in receiving, you will learn how to give, with the right heart of course. Where is this principle coming from?

We, Ate rose and I, were counselling one dear friend a month back. She saw herself as a "burden" because she thought that she has already received much and wanting to payback but unable to. We've cleared the air by telling her some of our well-known saga. We said that the ultimate reason why we can bless is actually because we have been so much blessed. AND, I believe if we ask those people who are generously giving now, many will say "I'm giving because I have received much or I've been there".

Imagine a vessel being poured with water: it will for sure overflow as you pour more or looking at the other end, as the vessel continue to receive; it has no other option but to let the water spill. The tangible things that we have received may diminish but the very act of kindness or generosity is being deposited in our hearts - our "vessels". Citing my own experience as an example, I stayed on the “receiving side” for 3 years or 75% of my college years (not mentioning my childhood days of course). Admittedly, I was discouraged many times but everytime I see His goodness shown by His people, I can't help but be thankful. I know how a very simple act of generosity can fade away any tears because I know the feeling...

So the next time we experience drought, let's impede from thinking less about ourselves because unknowingly (and sadly), these unsatisfying thoughts are actually putting a curb on us in crossing the other line. It's just time for our vessels to be filled and sooner or later, our appointed season will come where we can also just gladly tilt our vessels for our water to leak. Meanwhile, let's learn to be thankful with what we have now; this is always a good start. As Joyce Meyer well said, "A thankful person will be blessed even more with things to thank for." Or you can also refer to our MANUAL and open to Psalm 50:23 where it says, “Whoever offers the sacrifice of thanksgiving glorifies me, and prepares his way so that I will show salvation to him.” God is not so concerned if we come empty handed but He is more concerned if these "empty hands" will be lifted up to offer thanksgiving. This is the secret of King David in opening the doors of blessings.

Another significant thing to add is that we should not start from what we don't have but rather start from what we already have. Like any investors, they don't start from their weaknesses but from every little opportunity they have to supersede any threats. On the same manner, we may now only have "2 fish and 5 loaves" or worse, an empty lunch box, but we have our time that we can wisely invest, skills/gifts as our assets, His promises that will surely come with positive returns... and the list goes on. These readily available resources will take over any surging challenges that we may have. Amazingly, we'll just be surprise that our initial investment can sooner feed five thousand.

Secrets of HIS Riches

As most of the working people in Singapore rush to the office to dig their treasures, I reckon on the secrets of digging HIS riches.

We are so much aware that there will be a lot of tests in our CHRISTian journey. They say, one of the toughest tests of our maturity is “relationship/matters of the heart”. I also know a test that I believe should be applied with the same weight as the latter one and that is, faithfully giving our tithes and offering.

I have read and heard a lot of preachings on giving and most of them say that giving our tithes/offering is a command, which is indeed true.

“Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, so that there may be food in My house, and test Me now in this,” says the LORD of hosts, "if I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you a blessing until it overflows.” Malachi 3:10

But I will not put my stress on the “command” thing because after all, it always ends at the state of our heart.

Few of the billion dollars worth of questions that we have are, “What if we have a lot of bills on our plate that are choking us? Is it valid not to give our tithes/offering? Will HIS grace be sufficient enough to understand?” Arguments noted. I will surely not argue on GOD’s grace as we all know that HE is a father who understands well. However, I will not also dare to question GOD’s goodness. Here is the point that I’m driving at: Our Father knew it very well that Isaac was the only son of Abraham when HE asked Abraham to offer Isaac. So Abraham did as he was told to do. He didn’t argue. For what purpose? -- to test Abraham’s love/trust to his GOD.

"Do not lay your hand on the lad, or do anything to him; for now I know that you fear God, since you have not withheld your son, your only son, from Me” Genesis 22:12

And we know the story, GOD provided a ram needed for the offering and the place was called, “Jehovah Jireh” or “The-Lord-Will-Provide”.

I believe the basic premise of why we give is because “God is good”. No matter how much trillions worth we give, be it in cash, kind or labor, we can never outgive HIM because simply, HE is good. Every time we flip the pages of our Bible, we always see HIS goodness. Blessing HIS children is HIS cup of tea!

“Not one of the good promises which the LORD had made to the house of Israel failed; all came to pass.” Joshua 21:45

Planting a single seed (depends on the kind) will most likely produce hundreds/thousands seeds of its kind– I’m not an agriculturist so you can debate with me on that but that’s the principle lies behind in giving. You give one tenth from what you have; HE will give it back hundred folds. I leave the calculation to you.

These things that I’ve written are not something I just picked somewhere in the air but something that I’ve hardly learned. Well, this is maybe one of the things that many of us will learn the hard way. From the point where I started up to now, one thing I have proven is that even if we sum up all our so called BIG concerns, it would still be just a piece of cake to our BIG DAD!

We have always been declaring GOD’s goodness in our lives but are we really living with that very principle? A thought to ponder.

Sweetly Broken (title from Jeremy Riddle's song)

Questions are popping up on my mind now that I just feel like releasing them. I guess you will agree with me when I say that some answers to our questions are inevitable but not convincing or encouraging at all – they are like salt in your wounds. But, well, salt is used for purifying, are we not suppose to rejoice then? Arghh…

I must say, my previous weeks have been very tough (and still getting tougher…) that I just want to disappear for awhile… I’ve asked a lot of things lately but I’ve received the otherwise.

I long to hide and rest but I’m being pushed to come out and run…
I yearn for something but I’m asked to wait.
I’m begging for a helping hand but they even broke my leg.
I wish for a lighter load but I was given more challenges.
I want to shout and yet GOD is asking me to stay calm and quiet.

So, anyone who can give me a very gratifying answer? I bet most of us would say, that includes me (and because there’s no other way), “Trust and rest in HIS arms.” BUT, trusting and resting are not as easy as we thought. It requires a willful mind, heart and soul to totally lay down everything and remove any shadow of doubts. I’ve heard a lot of well known writers/pastors/missionaries who took time (some years) for them to totally grasp how to really rest in the midst of the storm. I believe it’s because the limited mind can’t easily chew something like that. Touch their family and surely, many would be shaken. Throw some more personal/emotional/work concerns and definitely, some would draw back.

My question still remains, are we not supposed to rejoice then? I believe no one can really lay down any crystal clear answers but as most of us know that still, GOD has His own ways of getting our attention. He wants us to get out from our “physical state” and step into HIS “spiritual realm”. Right, our understanding is very limited that’s why He’s asking us to let go of that “limited understanding” and embrace HIS “eternal grace”. I admit rejoicing is very hard during the hard-hitting trials but at the end of it, I’m certain that we will surely rejoice as long as we stay in HIS guidance – that, I’m very certain...

Right Choice

“Breakthrough is something that we can not achieve on our own. It requires divine intervention.”- B. Yoder

Breakthrough came to Israel when they were set free from captivity. The good news is we already have this freedom! We have been set free from anything that blocks our way to our GOD so breakthrough is not something that is so hard to reach. Sometimes, we tried so hard to push ourselves beyond our limits believing that in this way, our works will not come null and void. Of course, faith is dead without action but there are a lot of times, we are missing the most essential thing. And we know, but sometimes tend to forget (which is very tragic), that actually the most essential things are the basic things.

These days I’ve been asking GOD… and He just simply gave me these words, “You just have to know what to choose.” There are a lot of times that I seek for deep things to GOD but sometimes, He will just say (and I can imagine GOD saying with a sigh and a sweet smile on HIS face) simple words. It’s like, “Is that it? I mean, is that all?” You know what? God’s WORDs are impeccable!

“I just have to know what to choose…” Isn’t it amazing that GOD has chosen to leave us the freedom of choice when He knows it very well that man, most of the times, doesn’t know what exactly to choose? Sometimes, we are so clueless and so we are driven by the things that we think can satisfy us. As Erwin McManus explicitly said, “Sometimes, people give meaningful to the things which are meaningless and people give meaningless to the things that are meaningful.”

The breakthrough that I am waiting… The fruits that I am are asking… The heart’s desire that I am seeking… In every question and in every situation… Yes, the answer is spelled in simple words, “I just have to know what to choose”. I will declare these choices… I choose to listen to the Voice of the One that I love. I choose to obey… I choose to worship and lavish HIS love. I choose to seek HIM… I choose to allow HIM to move… Not me, yes, not me but HIM alone.

Everything that we need has been given to us. All the resources to move in our offices even the power and anointing to break forth. We just have to know the right choices and to boldly exercise them…

Song of songs 3:1-4
By night on my bed I sought him whom my soul loveth; I sought him, but I found him not. 'I will rise now, and go about the city, in the streets and in the broad ways, I will seek him whom my soul loveth.' I sought him, but I found him not. The watchmen that go about the city found me: 'Saw ye him whom my soul loveth?' Scarce had I passed from them, when I found him whom my soul loveth: I held him, and would not let him go, until I had brought him into my mother's house, and into the chamber of her that conceived me.

Let’s sought after HIM and hold HIM… That’s the right choice.